Just to update my three readers, I’ve taken a break updating my blog as my life has been turned upside-down (for the better) over the last year. There are just too many people out there who want to gossip about everything that has happened, feeding information to those I’ve cut out of my life. I will begin again one day.. when all traces of the clouds have blown away..
SO, for now.. I’m focusing on the first and third bits of my tagline. :)
Have a great weekend, lovelies!
~ emi
In the midst of an actually decent day, I found myself slightly frustrated over a work problem.. and so I decided to take a mental break to work on organizing my office. Unfortunately, in the process, I saw something that was a reminder of two friends recently making fun of me behind my back.. about something that wasn’t true.
I laughed it off at the time, but suddenly it’s really bugging me. As if my 13 year old self was annoyed, but too damn shy to say anything. Or maybe it’s that propriety thing rearing its ugly head.. .. have I been too long in the ’silence is golden’ rut? Obviously I couldn’t correct the person in the moment.. they were accusing laughing that I was posturing.. so it would sound exactly like I was deluding myself into believing the lie.
I know that I am too literal for some of my friends’ sensibilities. (I totally empathize with Bones‘ Dr. Brennan most days.) But assumptions like this are the exact reason is why I am this way. Maybe it shouldn’t bother me so much. Maybe everyone else should just deal with the fact that I like being understood.
sigh.
When someone makes assumptions about you.. how do you handle it? How do you explain to someone that you were not, in fact, lying about yourself? How do you explain your true self? Or do you not bother and tell them all to bugger off, as one friend suggested?
It is really amazing how little insights and new knowledge can completely change your whole world around. Back in June, God opened my eyes to a whole mess of realizations about my life and life around me. I cannot really speak of all of them yet.. as the timing is not quite right. Although the biggest changes that are coming will make me a Fisher again and bring me back up to Jersey.
These realizations forced me to take an extended ‘navel-contemplation’ vacation to visit my best friend in PA. I left in July and will be returning to FL in another week. I am so excited about my new life that is coming. I cannot even tell you how much I’ve changed simply by being up here. When I first arrived, I was so strung-out by stress that I jumped at the littlest things, couldn’t sit still, and apologized for everything I did and said. Now.. well, to hear Christa speak of it, I’m a different person. :) I know I am. Now, I get to delve deeper into the process of finding bits of me I’ve long since left behind.
I cannot wait to tell you news of my life.. and I’m not even stressed about being in limbo anymore.
We’ve all been happy and excited around here all week.. our family has a new addition! :) My big sister, Kathy, and her hubby just had their first child.. a son, Nate. He is so precious! Most babies - and I am sorry if this offends any of you or your offspring – but most babies come out squished. Seriously.. cone heads, or mushed faces.. they look like little old people. But this little guy is just so adorable.. not smooshed at all.. just adorable! :)
:) Well, I’m here.. with my shiny new playground..
Please excuse it for a while though – I am trying out new themes and playing with the ones I like in order to make them more me. In the mean time, feel free to poke around and visit some of my friends on my reading list.
Oh, and if you’re looking for my old blog.. go here.
~e